Monday, February 23, 2009

Frozen

I can't pray. I just can't do it. I don't go to church, never have. I have always prayed though. I prayed all through my pregnancy with Clarence. Every single night. I want to. The words won't come. My lips are frozen.



I wonder if He listens anyhow.





He doesn't seem to.

4 comments:

bir said...

I understand exactly how you feel. People tell you that He listens, but what was He doing when I was begging Him to leave my son on earth with me? I've really struggled with that, and since.

I still try to pray, and to believe what people tell me, that He has always been with me, and is on my side.

But it's hard. I don't like His plan. So it's really hard to stay friends.

x

Monique said...

Just ((hugs))

SMK said...

Hi I found your blog through a friend... hope you don't mind the post. I just wanted to tell you that I feel for you and grieve along with you. I lost my girls 3 years ago this June and I still wonder if "He" listens. I only recently was able to wear my cross again.. it stayed on their urns the last couple years... since I felt that I lost my faith when I lost them I couldn't accept it. Sending you tons of hugs!! I am here if you ever need to talk.

Gidget said...

I definitely believe that he hears and listens. I also believe that you will pray when you are ready. As a friend told me (a friend that you told me to call), it's okay to tell Him that you are angry with him. It's okay to be mad and to be hurt. I know I certainly told Him much worse things....things that I probably shouldn't repeat ever. I also know that those were the times that I felt the most heard and listened to. Those were the times I felt comforted.