Friday, January 30, 2009

The Life Of Clarence - Part I

I wanted to take you on the short journey of the life of my son, starting with finding out I was pregnant with my little guy. Below is a picture of the charting I was doing to see if I was ovulating and when. It was a long cycle and I was getting very discouraged and didn't think it was gonna happen. Then one night Chad and I were feeling romantic. As luck would have it I ovulated the next day and conceived Clarence. Of course we wouldn't know that for a little while longer though. About 6 or 7 days after I ovulated I started to bleed. I was devastated. Not only was I not pregnant, but my period came way too early....or so I thought! The very next day, the bleeding tapered off and then was non existent. I began to suspect the the bleeding was what is called "implantation bleeding". I was cautiously excited! Finally when I was 10 days past ovulation and about 3 days after the implantation spotting I decided to take a HPT. The very faintest of lines appeared. I was shocked. I couldn't believe it. Chad returned home from a short walk with the kids and I called him upstairs to make sure I wasn't seeing things. I wasn't!! Here is a picture of that pregnancy test taken on 8/4/2008.
We were so excited. I think Chad was more shocked actually than anything. We told a select few people and decided that we would surprise the rest @ Kensington's first birthday party later that month.

Just a few short days before her party I started to have brown spotting. I felt sick to my stomach with worry. I had had spotting all through out the first trimester with Kensington, but that doesn't harden you to the fact that it is scary. I called the OB the first thing the next morning and they quickly scheduled me in for an ultra sound. You can imagine our relief when we saw the tiny blob below just flickering away! I was only 6 weeks pregnant and already there was a very strong heartbeat. I was in love.


k@lakly said...

I'm so sorry about Clarence. So sorry you had to join our club. It sucks having to be here, but the women here will lift you up and walk with you every step of the way. I hope writing is as cathartic for you as it has been for me.
Keeping everything crossed for you as you begin the next journey, trying again.

Barbara said...

What a sweet little boy!

So sorry you had to meet him this way. And so sorry to meet you here but so glad you chose to share little Clarence with us.

Walking with you on this journey.


sophie said...

Hi Alisha im Sophie im 18 i feel for you and Chad as i lost my son Oscar James the same way on the 25th August 2009 he was 25weeks and 2 days he weighed 1.5oz your son is such a beautiful little boy im so sorry that this happened to you i really do know how you and your partner are feeling.
An angel wrote in the Book of Life your baby's date of birth Then whispered as she closed the book "Too beautiful for Earth" ... Goodnight and god bless to all those little angels who were taken from our arms but never from our hearts. all my love Sophie.
P.S everyday will get easier 1 step at a time and we will make it through together. Thinking of you xx